Day 25

I’m staring at my screen right now trying to figure out what to write.

It’s not that I don’t have enough to write about, but that I have too much.

Signing up for this class wasn't a thought-through decision. It went something like this:

I want to take an upper division philosophy class over the summer. Existentialism? What’s that about? Looks interesting. Okay, add. 

I didn’t know what to expect and I didn’t want to get my hopes up, I didn’t want to attach some kind of unrealistic expectation to it. So I tried to keep it “clinical.” I named my blog a number and my posts by days. 

But this class ended up giving me a lot. Including but not limited to: comfort, frustration, happiness, annoyance, understanding, confusion, sadness, hope, friends, great reading material, respect for other people, a little more confidence in myself, and a new spin on an old perspective. 

There's a certain amount of vulnerability involved when taking this course. And in a way it was somewhat of a healing process.

That is about the best thing that a class can give a person, in my opinion.

When I told people I had a summer class they would say, “that sucks.” And I would reply, “Not really. It’s the most fun  that I’ve had all summer.”

The End 

Side Notes:

When it comes to writing, I’m somewhat of a perfectionist. I will sacrifice my grade rather than turn in a piece that I don’t’ feel comfortable with. Because these posts needed to be submitted within twenty four hours of the class period, I had to (in order to get a passing grade) abandon that mentality. I still didn’t end up blogging two posts that I wrote though. But! It could have been much worse. I now have have the ability to throw up a chunk of my mind onto a computer screen in a reasonably short amount of time. I would consider that a skill.  

For whatever reason I’ve been intimidated by the thought of going to philosophy club, all year last year I made an excuse every single Friday at 3pm for why I couldn’t go.  But now -- I am taking responsibility. I am going, and because the new school year hasn’t started yet and I still want to own it, I submitted a request to join through orgsync.